Today I’m going to post something I usually wouldn’t post on social media. A transformation.
The above photo is from 2011/2017. Now I wish there was some major weight loss transformation to show you but there isn’t.
- Just left uni
- Struggling to find work, not sure what I wanted to do
- Felt ugly, fat and unhappy with myself and my appearance
- Struggling to find my place in life and felt like I wasn’t good enough and constantly felt like the world was against me.
I was about to face some of the toughest years in my life soon after this photo. I spiraled into depression and anxiety. For more info on that please see my mental health post.
- More confident (not 100% there yet)
- Love myself (again, not 100% there, we all have shit days)
- Stronger, fitter, faster
- Earning good money, focused more positively on a career and work orientated goals
- Making and smashing goals constantly
- Has performed in Aerial shows, and competed in Races
I am a lot happier but I am constantly working to improve my physical and mental health.
The photo on the left is also from 2011 and the right was a couple of days ago.
- Had been dancing every day at uni
- Was on the pill, binged heavily every time I got upset
- Not sure of exact weight but around this time I was approximately 12+ stone.
- Running for a year and a half
- Aerial on and off for 3 + years
whatever I like but don’t control my emotions solely on food anymore.
- Has a better relationship with food
- Approximately 10 stone.
I look at the person on the left and just feel sorry for her, in both pictures although I’m smiling I wasn’t very happy and the worse was yet to come. Six years between each picture and so much has happened, I’ve grown up so much and changed in so many positive ways. Anyone who knew me in 2011 may have known I wasn’t the nicest person to myself or to others, I regret some of the decisions I made back then. Now I am thankful I’ve lived through everything and grown as a person. I have been on the biggest roller coaster with my mental and physical health, after the lows it’s been really hard to feel comfortable in my own skin and around other people. Having scars, stretch marks and then feeling fat and ugly I thought I was unworthy of ever being loved or even liked by other people, I realised that this was a mindset I needed to get away from and started making positive steps to love myself and change the way I appreciated my own body. Soon enough I started feeling the love from other people and I realised that things weren’t as bad as I felt like they once were.
I can’t explain exactly how these changes were made, you find what works for you and stick with it. It’s not easy, you need to constantly adjust and adapt and put yourself first in order to get the results you want. For me it was a long hard road with many up and downs. Now I am always adjusting what works for me to maintain and grow.
Bonus picture update:
This picture was taken in 2010. I am so thankful I have changed for the better 😜
My first half marathon of the year is done, with it being an extra difficult one mentally and physically I now need to take more time to focus on looking after myself. Here are my top ten self care habits that I like to do.
- Hot Bath
Even when I’ve not been running, I sometimes feel tense even if I’ve just got a lot going on Mentally. A hot bath helps me relax. I love adding bath bombs, bubble bars, epsom salts or essential oils to the bath to help me de-stress and unwind.
- Read a Book/Watch a Film
Often combined with number 1. I’m not much of a reader but a few of my favourite books to read or re-read are “The Color Purple”, “The Perks of being a Wallflower” and “Silver Linings Playbook”. My go to feel good films are anything Disney (obviously) like Mulan, Hercules, or The Little Mermaid to name a few favourites. My all time Favourite Film ever in the world is Sister Act (stop laughing) it holds so many good memories for me and can always put me in a good mood.
Sometimes doing your nails, hair and make up just makes you feel good. Clean Hair, fresh nails and make up makes me feel like I am ready to take on the world.
A good way to connect with your body, listen and understand your body’s needs and give your mind some time to recouperate and focus. Click Here for a previous post on stretching.
- Light a candle
I love a good Candle. Yankee Candles are my favourite. I have a wax burner in my room and love all the different smells you can get. Right now my room smells like a cupcake and I couldn’t love it anymore.
- Go for a walk
I’m quite passionate about a good walk. It gives me time to clear my head and forget about the worries of the day. It’s been a year and a half since I started walking to work daily. Take a look a one of my old posts here about walking.
- Do a Hobby
I love crafting, I love going to the theatre and I love Aerial. If I’m having a tough time doing any of these things for fun can always help me mentally and physically feel my best.
- Listen to music
I created a 12 Hour Musical Theatre playlist, and it’s amazing. I listen to my favourite songs to put me in a good mood.
Anyone else find cleaning weirdly therapeutic? If I have a lot going on up in my head, physically doing something like running is a great way to transfer the tension and release it. Sometimes when I don’t want to run, cleaning has the same effect. Organising and rearranging helps me put order into my life.
I love Food! If I want to eat something I will, I have no restrictions in my diet. If my body needs fuel, I feed it good foods, If my body needs comfort food, then that’s what it will get. Sausages, Mash & Peas will always been my favourite dinner.
What do you do to take care of your Mental and Physical health? Let me know in the comments! 🙂