Transformation Tuesday

Hello all,

Today I’m going to post something I usually wouldn’t post on social media. A transformation.

The above photo is from 2011/2017. Now I wish there was some major weight loss transformation to show you but there isn’t.

2011 –

  • Just left uni
  • Struggling to find work, not sure what I wanted to do
  • Unconfident
  • Felt ugly, fat and unhappy with myself and my appearance
  • Struggling to find my place in life and felt like I wasn’t good enough and constantly felt like the world was against me.

I was about to face some of the toughest years in my life soon after this photo. I spiraled into depression and anxiety. For more info on that please see my mental health post.

2017 –

  • More confident (not 100% there yet)
  • Love myself (again, not 100% there, we all have shit days)
  • Stronger, fitter, faster
  • Happier
  • Healthier
  • Earning good money, focused more positively on a career and work orientated goals
  • Making and smashing goals constantly
  • Has performed in Aerial shows, and competed in Races

I am a lot happier but I am constantly working to improve my physical and mental health.


The photo on the left is also from 2011 and the right was a couple of days ago.

Left –

  • Had been dancing every day at uni
  • Was on the pill, binged heavily every time I got upset
  • Not sure of exact weight but around this time I was approximately 12+ stone.

Right –

  • Running for a year and a half
  • Aerial on and off for 3 + years
  • Eat whatever I like but don’t control my emotions solely on food anymore.
  • Has a better relationship with food
  • Approximately 10 stone.

I look at the person on the left and just feel sorry for her, in both pictures although I’m smiling I wasn’t very happy and the worse was yet to come. Six years between each picture and so much has happened, I’ve grown up so much and changed in so many positive ways. Anyone who knew me in 2011 may have known I wasn’t the nicest person to myself or to others, I regret some of the decisions I made back then. Now I am thankful I’ve lived through everything and grown as a person. I have been on the biggest roller coaster with my mental and physical health, after the lows it’s been really hard to feel comfortable in my own skin and around other people. Having scars, stretch marks and then feeling fat and ugly I thought I was unworthy of ever being loved or even liked by other people, I realised that this was a mindset I needed to get away from and started making positive steps to love myself and change the way I appreciated my own body. Soon enough I started feeling the love from other people and I realised that things weren’t as bad as I felt like they once were.

I can’t explain exactly how these changes were made, you find what works for you and stick with it. It’s not easy, you need to constantly adjust and adapt and put yourself first in order to get the results you want. For me it was a long hard road with many up and downs. Now I am always adjusting what works for me to maintain and grow. 
Bonus picture update: 


This picture was taken in 2010. I am so thankful I have changed for the better 😜

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Self Care

My first half marathon of the year is done, with it being an extra difficult one mentally and physically I now need to take more time to focus on looking after myself. Here are my top ten self care habits that I like to do.

  1. Hot Bath
    Even when I’ve not been running, I sometimes feel tense even if I’ve just got a lot going on Mentally. A hot bath helps me relax. I love adding bath bombs, bubble bars, epsom salts or essential oils to the bath to help me de-stress and unwind.
  2. Read a Book/Watch a Film
    Often combined with number 1. I’m not much of a reader but a few of my favourite books to read or re-read are “The Color Purple”, “The Perks of being a Wallflower” and “Silver Linings Playbook”. My go to feel good films are anything Disney (obviously) like Mulan, Hercules, or The Little Mermaid to name a few favourites. My all time Favourite Film ever in the world is Sister Act (stop laughing) it holds so many good memories for me and can always put me in a good mood.
  3. Pamper
    Sometimes doing your nails, hair and make up just makes you feel good. Clean Hair, fresh nails and make up makes me feel like I am ready to take on the world.
  4. Stretch/Yoga/Meditate
    A good way to connect with your body, listen and understand your body’s needs and give your mind some time to recouperate and focus. Click Here for a previous post on stretching.
  5. Light a candle
    I love a good Candle. Yankee Candles are my favourite. I have a wax burner in my room and love all the different smells you can get. Right now my room smells like a cupcake and I couldn’t love it anymore.
  6. Go for a walk
    I’m quite passionate about a good walk. It gives me time to clear my head and forget about the worries of the day. It’s been a year and a half since I started walking to work daily. Take a look a one of my old posts here about walking.
  7. Do a Hobby
    I love crafting, I love going to the theatre and I love Aerial. If I’m having a tough time doing any of these things for fun can always help me mentally and physically feel my best.
  8. Listen to music
    I created a 12 Hour Musical Theatre playlist, and it’s amazing. I listen to my favourite songs to put me in a good mood.
  9. Clean
    Anyone else find cleaning weirdly therapeutic?  If I have a lot going on up in my head, physically doing something like running is a great way to transfer the tension and release it. Sometimes when I don’t want to run, cleaning has the same effect. Organising and rearranging helps me put order into my life.
  10. Eat
    I love Food! If I want to eat something I will, I have no restrictions in my diet. If my body needs fuel, I feed it good foods, If my body needs comfort food, then that’s what it will get. Sausages, Mash & Peas will always been my favourite dinner.

 

What do you do to take care of your Mental and Physical health? Let me know in the comments! 🙂

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Mental Health awareness week

Hi All,
Today I’m posting something a little different.
Mental Health Awareness Week 2017 is taking place this week, between Monday May 8 – Sunday 14, so I thought I would talk to you a little about my life and experiences and how my running journey has helped with this.

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2017

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Happy New Year!

I am back blogging, and keeping you updated on my fitness journey. Since finishing the Royal Parks half marathon back in October I have been relaxing from the fitness goals and having lots of fun. I have continued to run and do some aerial but I haven’t had anything to work towards in terms of fitness goals.

My fitness journey last year was challenging but so rewarding and has left me hungry for more, so here I am back to set some goals for 2017.

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Sounds a bit simple right? but sometimes it’s easy to neglect what makes you feel good.

In 2016 my highlights involved spending time with friends and family and making amazing memories. I plan to do so much more of this, because right now I can’t get enough of my friends and family, they are all amazing, they have really made the last year one of my best yet!

I also need to connect with the smaller things that make me happy, a certain song or even visiting a certain cafe, just having time to myself and really connecting with the little things I often take for granted.

The whole reason I started this blog was to track my progress to my first two big races! It was a success and I think I finally caught the running bug, I’ve seen so many benefits mentally and physically that entering races has done for me I thought “why not do a few more?”.

I loved my run in Disneyland Paris and I was jealous of everyone competing in more than one race and doing challenges, so this year as they have introduced a 10k I will hopefully be securing a place to run the two course challenge. Details are limited at this time and bib only places have not been released yet so I’m keeping my fingers crossed for a place and will hopefully cross the finish line once again in one of my favourite places on earth.

I will also be trying to get a place for the Wine & Dine Half Marathon 2017 in Walt Disney world Florida. Its been a long time dream to visit WDW and now I finally have an excuse. Planning for this has already started.

Last year I impressed myself but running continuously for 2:13:34 and getting much better times in both my half marathons than I originally thought I would when I started this blog. This year I would like to get under 2 hours and 10 minutes. I would be chuffed if I could do that.

I want to try a new form of exercise and mix up my work out plan a bit.This might be trying a new aerial discipline or checking out a fancy class in a London Gym, I have a whole year but I’d like to see what else is out there. Maybe review a few classes? Who knows!

I would also like to try some new foods and learn some new go-to recipes.

This past year, I have had difficult times trying to keep my head above water. For the most part I have had an amazing year but there have been times where anxiety has taken over some of the best moments and put a dark cloud over them. I have often been criticised for being too negative so this year like all others I will continue to look on my own person outlook. I think I am a lot more positive than I was 4-5 years ago, I just need to strengthen and maintain this. Mental Health is just as important as Physical Health.

I look forward to connecting with you all via this platform in the next year. Please don’t hesitate to comment below or contact me  if you have a question to ask or advice to give, I’m all ears (mouse ears).

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All about Aerial

What I love most about my current job is the routine of 9-5 Monday to Friday. Prior to this I had always had jobs that were shift work and I could never get into a routine of committing to regular exercise. Now that I have started this new job, I’m finding it so much easier to make time to work out and enjoy it!
In September 2013 I was struggling with what I wanted to do professionally, I took some time to study again but eventually that didn’t work out for me. I was struggling to figure out what I was passionate about. I was given the opportunity to take a 10 week course in Aerial Trapeze.

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