Transformation Tuesday

Hello all,

Today I’m going to post something I usually wouldn’t post on social media. A transformation.

The above photo is from 2011/2017. Now I wish there was some major weight loss transformation to show you but there isn’t.

2011 –

  • Just left uni
  • Struggling to find work, not sure what I wanted to do
  • Unconfident
  • Felt ugly, fat and unhappy with myself and my appearance
  • Struggling to find my place in life and felt like I wasn’t good enough and constantly felt like the world was against me.

I was about to face some of the toughest years in my life soon after this photo. I spiraled into depression and anxiety. For more info on that please see my mental health post.

2017 –

  • More confident (not 100% there yet)
  • Love myself (again, not 100% there, we all have shit days)
  • Stronger, fitter, faster
  • Happier
  • Healthier
  • Earning good money, focused more positively on a career and work orientated goals
  • Making and smashing goals constantly
  • Has performed in Aerial shows, and competed in Races

I am a lot happier but I am constantly working to improve my physical and mental health.

The photo on the left is also from 2011 and the right was a couple of days ago.

Left –

  • Had been dancing every day at uni
  • Was on the pill, binged heavily every time I got upset
  • Not sure of exact weight but around this time I was approximately 12+ stone.

Right –

  • Running for a year and a half
  • Aerial on and off for 3 + years
  • Eat whatever I like but don’t control my emotions solely on food anymore.
  • Has a better relationship with food
  • Approximately 10 stone.

I look at the person on the left and just feel sorry for her, in both pictures although I’m smiling I wasn’t very happy and the worse was yet to come. Six years between each picture and so much has happened, I’ve grown up so much and changed in so many positive ways. Anyone who knew me in 2011 may have known I wasn’t the nicest person to myself or to others, I regret some of the decisions I made back then. Now I am thankful I’ve lived through everything and grown as a person. I have been on the biggest roller coaster with my mental and physical health, after the lows it’s been really hard to feel comfortable in my own skin and around other people. Having scars, stretch marks and then feeling fat and ugly I thought I was unworthy of ever being loved or even liked by other people, I realised that this was a mindset I needed to get away from and started making positive steps to love myself and change the way I appreciated my own body. Soon enough I started feeling the love from other people and I realised that things weren’t as bad as I felt like they once were.

I can’t explain exactly how these changes were made, you find what works for you and stick with it. It’s not easy, you need to constantly adjust and adapt and put yourself first in order to get the results you want. For me it was a long hard road with many up and downs. Now I am always adjusting what works for me to maintain and grow. 
Bonus picture update: 

This picture was taken in 2010. I am so thankful I have changed for the better 😜







Self Care

My first half marathon of the year is done, with it being an extra difficult one mentally and physically I now need to take more time to focus on looking after myself. Here are my top ten self care habits that I like to do.

  1. Hot Bath
    Even when I’ve not been running, I sometimes feel tense even if I’ve just got a lot going on Mentally. A hot bath helps me relax. I love adding bath bombs, bubble bars, epsom salts or essential oils to the bath to help me de-stress and unwind.
  2. Read a Book/Watch a Film
    Often combined with number 1. I’m not much of a reader but a few of my favourite books to read or re-read are “The Color Purple”, “The Perks of being a Wallflower” and “Silver Linings Playbook”. My go to feel good films are anything Disney (obviously) like Mulan, Hercules, or The Little Mermaid to name a few favourites. My all time Favourite Film ever in the world is Sister Act (stop laughing) it holds so many good memories for me and can always put me in a good mood.
  3. Pamper
    Sometimes doing your nails, hair and make up just makes you feel good. Clean Hair, fresh nails and make up makes me feel like I am ready to take on the world.
  4. Stretch/Yoga/Meditate
    A good way to connect with your body, listen and understand your body’s needs and give your mind some time to recouperate and focus. Click Here for a previous post on stretching.
  5. Light a candle
    I love a good Candle. Yankee Candles are my favourite. I have a wax burner in my room and love all the different smells you can get. Right now my room smells like a cupcake and I couldn’t love it anymore.
  6. Go for a walk
    I’m quite passionate about a good walk. It gives me time to clear my head and forget about the worries of the day. It’s been a year and a half since I started walking to work daily. Take a look a one of my old posts here about walking.
  7. Do a Hobby
    I love crafting, I love going to the theatre and I love Aerial. If I’m having a tough time doing any of these things for fun can always help me mentally and physically feel my best.
  8. Listen to music
    I created a 12 Hour Musical Theatre playlist, and it’s amazing. I listen to my favourite songs to put me in a good mood.
  9. Clean
    Anyone else find cleaning weirdly therapeutic?  If I have a lot going on up in my head, physically doing something like running is a great way to transfer the tension and release it. Sometimes when I don’t want to run, cleaning has the same effect. Organising and rearranging helps me put order into my life.
  10. Eat
    I love Food! If I want to eat something I will, I have no restrictions in my diet. If my body needs fuel, I feed it good foods, If my body needs comfort food, then that’s what it will get. Sausages, Mash & Peas will always been my favourite dinner.


What do you do to take care of your Mental and Physical health? Let me know in the comments! πŸ™‚


All about Aerial – Part 2

If you haven’t read my Aerial Journey so far, please feel free to read it here.

Around May last year, I got super fed up of going to Aerial. I was exhausted from the hours spent travelling to the school I was training at, and fed up of paying for classes and not making them because of illness or train problems. I felt like everyone was advancing way more than me, and because majority were dancers and had more time to commit to this I just wasn’t at the same level. I decided to give up my Hoop class for a while.

Choosing to focus more on my running (& social life) I took more than a short break. It helped me focus on my running and gave me more time to have fun which I think I mentally needed. I miss my friends from my old Aerial School but I don’t miss paying out Β£50 a month travelling there (let alone class fees).

Last October a school called Flying Fantastic opened a new venue, literally 15 minute walk from my workplace, and kind of on my route home. I had been to Flying Fantastic a few times before in another venue they had. I had never stuck with going there as IΒ mentioned in my previous post – Work/Life got in the way for some time.

In my time doing aerial I’ve done Trapeze, Hoop, Spanish Web, Silks and now Slings. When I tried Silks I found it so difficult, I couldn’t climb them at all, I was so disappointed in myself because I thought it looked amazing, and there I was not being able to do anything. I loved Hoop, and that was my main discipline but I had grown tired of it. So I thought I would try something different, so in October I started Slings; I thought that would be a compromise between the two.

I’ve had weeks were I have absolutely hated myself and my body for not being able to do things in this class, but week in week out I go and I try again. For a while I thought I wasn’t seeing any progress but I can say now that I’ve definitely grown in confidence. I can much more confidently invert (go upside down) and my upper body is so much stronger. Since over stretching a muscle in the back of my right leg I’ve had to learn not to rely on my flexibility as much. It’s made me take it easier and make sure I’m not adding to this injury but it’s also made me appreciate that my body can do other incredible things.

I am very grateful for the teachers I’ve had so far, they are wonderful. They support youΒ so much and you definitely feel safe with them around. They are all incredibly talented too!

Flying Fantastic is primarily drop in classes, but fortunately there are regular people who go weekly. It’s more convenient if you know in advance you’re going to miss a week. They have great practice session that work around the 9-5 too and a lot of classes & workshops on the weekends!

You can check them out here:Β Flying Fantastic


DIY: Medal Display

Now I’m starting to earn some serious bling, I’d like to have somewhere to display it. I had eyed up some medal boards that other runners use and loved those that had a bib display and quot on them. I wasn’t a fan of metal hangers, and needed something bigger as my room is pretty bare and would love to fill up some space and incorporate the colors and theme of my room.

A couple of weeks ago I was set to order one from Etsy, it cost approx Β£30 and I thought it was a great price. Then I put it in my basket and BOOM – Shipping Fees all Β£50 of them. So I searched the internet for alternative ideas.

I am fortunate to work in a building management team and spoke openly about my need for a medal display, showing my team pictures. They said they could probably give me an off cut of wood. They measured it out for me and kindly drilled me some holes.

Next I found a Quote I liked, I found the fonts online myself and printed. When I did this I was at work and didn’t have my Bibs so had no idea if the quote would be too big. IT WAS. However I am impatient and wanted to do all this in one weekend, so you’ll find as this post goes on the extent of my impatience.

It’s a quite Friday night so I begin working on this project. I smoothed the wood over with sandpaper and cleaned it up then applied a primer, we had some undercoat primer paint lying around from where my mother has up-cycled a few things in the past so that was handy.

A few weekends a go, I stood in B&Q deliberating what colour to use for this project. I picked up this blue paint as I though it would go nicely with the rest of my room and it wouldn’t be too vibrant on my plain white walls.

Remember I said I was impatient? I used a hairdryer to dry the coast of paint so I could do all the painting in one evening. It literally take a couple of minutes to do one coat and then I would have had to wait hours for it to dry to do another, NO THANK YOU. Hairdryer to the rescue. After finishing all the blue coats, I left overnight to dry completely.

Saturday evening: I sit down and trace over the writing… who knew tracing was so hard? I have done this since school and had to search high and low for a sharpener for the one pencil I own. You can see a few clips at the top of the picture below. These are silver clips I brought from WHSmith earlier in the day. I don’t like silver, so I had some left over gold spray paint from another project and spray painted them gold. I had to go outside to do this. It was cold wet and windy. I also used the hairdryer to dry them, because like I said I’m impatient.

With a chalk pen I went over the lettering I had traced. I think it turned out pretty well. If I had the means to do so I would have got lettering stencils, but that’s a bit much when you only need it for a one time thing in a certain font.

Finally I screwed in the Hooks and super gluded on the clips.

Here’s the finished piece with the medals on it. Laid down because I’ve yet to put it on the wall:

And Here is me proudly showing it off:





The total cost of this project was approximately Β£12 thanks to the generosity of my friends and colleagues. The only thing left to do it put it on the wall and earn some more bling.

Have any of you done anything similar? I’d love to see how you display your race bling.


Paris in a Day

Oh Paris! What a beautiful city.

This is my second trip to Paris, both trips have been primarily about Disneyland so I haven’t had much opportunity to explore. Regardless I made the most of my Day in Paris.

I left London at 9:17am via Eurostar from London St Pancras to Gare du Nord station. After a 1 hr Delay we finally arrive shortly before 1:30pm. It’s annoying to loose an hour when you have a well planned Itinerary and lots of stuff you want to see.

Once we arrived in Paris we headed to TrocedΓ©ro station and from there (well right around the corner) we were graced with the amazing view of the Eiffel Tower. I have seen the Eiffel tower before by night and got to go up it too. I was happy to see it in the day and see it from a different view and get some good photos.

From there we walked to the Arc de Triomphe. We didn’t walk up because we had suitcases and I wasn’t going to exert myself before running a Half Marathon. From there we roamed around theΒ Champs-Γ‰lysΓ©es area, and stopped of for Coffee and Macaroons at LaudrΓ©e. I have to say I’m not a Macaroon fan, but I tried them and they were OK, just not my thing.

From there we mooched around and few shops – Hello Sephora, it was so hard not to spend all my money right there and then. I can’t wait till they open in London.

From there we took a long walk down to the Louvre and enjoyed the views along the way, that completed our pit stop tour of Paris.

We jumped on the Train to Disneyland Paris, and picked up my Race Packet.

EEEEEK! Race Recap coming soon…